We are affectiously known as 'San Mei' in the office now

Okay, i didn't win the 32" tv or that PSP i wanted but happy for my darling colleague who won the tv! I think the highlight of the night was 3 of us gals playing 'hide-and-seek' with one of our bosses. He was high on alcohol and kept coming to our table to talk to us (there were 10 at the table but he apparently only saw 3.. haa!), snatched our lucky draw tickets (he thinks its fun) etc etc... Whenever we see him approaching, we would rush to the other side of the ballroom and find people to take photos with.

Went for a haircut recently, and most of my curls got chopped off though i told my stylist to trim just a bit. Got a new colour too! Sad that my hair is shorter but i am beginning to like the now-straighter hair. Pulled back in a ponytail or tied halfway up, thats my new style! But that means spending an additional 10 minutes in the mornings to blow dry my hair... the price to pay for being vain!

Work is a teeny weeny bit better. Fellow colleague got over PMS (i suspect) and everything's back to normal between me and her. Thank goodness... i hate unhappiness... but the boss... umm... i still don't agree to the way she handles work and some recreational matters (i smell trouble soon...)

Another aspect in my life... i am moving on slowly and i am trying very, very, very hard. I probably got to give myself a pat on the back, for i have finally stopped crying (probably 2-3 weeks ago) but i still get teary as and when at the mention of it.

It is not easy when i can dream of him like 3-4 times in this month alone! During those free times, i start thinking nonsense and rubbish... moreover, seeing them makes my heart aches a lot... it is damn very the painful. F*** tearing all over again. But i have learnt, letting go is also a type of love. To love him does not mean having him... but i hope he will never hurt a love that loves ever again.

Jacelyn posted @ 10:56 PM | comment